Well my plans to keep this up to date has failed miserably. Oh well, I'll try to to better.
My physical change has been huge. I no longer feel like the 247 lbs. man I was 8 months ago. Now the physical change is almost complete, the rest of my life is still a work in progress.
I am not a perfect man. I have made many, many mistakes in my life and I have to live with them. I have apologized for them and I try to atone for them every day. I'm not a perfect father and I strive everyday to be a better man for my sons and be a good role model for them.
SO why does it feel like I'm spinning my wheels and and nothing is improving. I know I have a long way to go to fix my problems. I began counseling a few months ago and I have been told that I have improved my overall attitude, my relationship with my children and adopted a more positive outlook. Do I still get frustrated with little things, absolutely. I don't know that I will ever completely wipe that from who I am. I wish I could but it just doesn't seem to be possible.
What I can say is that I can look myself in the mirror and say I'm willing to fight to improve... No everyone can...
