So much for keeping up on Blogging

Well my plans to keep this up to date has failed miserably. Oh well, I'll try to to better.

My physical change has been huge. I no longer feel like the 247 lbs. man I was 8 months ago. Now the physical change is almost complete, the rest of my life is still a work in progress.

I am not a perfect man. I have made many, many mistakes in my life and I have to live with them. I have apologized for them and I try to atone for them every day. I'm not a perfect father and I strive everyday to be a better man for my sons and be a good role model for them.

SO why does it feel like I'm spinning my wheels and and nothing is improving. I know I have a long way to go to fix my problems. I began counseling a few months ago and I have been told that I have improved my overall attitude, my relationship with my children and adopted a more positive outlook. Do I still get frustrated with little things, absolutely. I don't know that I will ever completely wipe that from who I am. I wish I could but it just doesn't seem to be possible.

What I can say is that I can look myself in the mirror and say I'm willing to fight to improve... No everyone can...